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Wednesday, March 24, 2010
IF we're meant to be, we will be. People who's reading this post should know the amount of tremendous stress i'm facing right now. and i thought i really had it just now, i thought it was the end. never have i felt so alone, abandoned and lost in my life before. i was trembling and tearing like mad girl when i texted my partner-in-crime. it really felt as if the whole world came crashing down on me. i felt completely hopeless and to be honest i was shocked by the sadness within me i really never felt this way before. I know all your care and concern for me is because you loved me too deep and way too much, so much so that you're afraid of losing me, uncle said seeing you cry that day was like a father seeing his own flesh and blood dying there infront of him. maybe only time will tell you how much this mean to me and only time will tell if we're really able to last but till then i made up my mind not to let all these stop me(us), we're going to take things slow and go with the flow. this is my life, my choice, my decision and i've to take responsibility it. i got to do what i want to do with it because i don't want to have any regrets when i'm old. i can't stand those endless "What IF" and even if i failed i know that i've already tried my best and won't regret when the time comes for me to leave this world - that's when i'm old of course. Life's too short to be living someone else's dream. to my-partner-in-crime: i know these 1 week have been really stressful and tough on you and believe me the road infront of us is going to be much much more tougher. i'm not suprised if this is going to be hell lotta worse than WW3, everyday might be living hell for both of us and problems will only multiply and get more complicated unless we decide to stop this journey. Till then i think we shall stick together and try to overcome all these many fucking insane, unreasonable obstacles one step at a time, slow and steady okay? and i believe that all these obstructions will only make whatever we have between us( our bond )- stronger. from the way i was affected and how it almost killed my heart just now, i can somehow confirm how much this meant to me. 9:42 PM
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