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Monday, March 31, 2008
QUIZ!
2.How do you feel now ? - Tired. But I finally feel more peaceful now after learning to take it slowly. Some things can't be rushed I guess. 3.If you can fufil one wish , what would it be ? - I hope the person whom I've been waiting all these while will appear soon. I seriously think my Mr. Right is a slowcoach. 4.Who are you thankful to ? - Everyone who's always there for me whenever I need them. Most importantly my GIRLFRIENDS!! =) 5 important wishes for now ? 1. Hope I'm able to adapt to new lifestyle asap and get good grades. 2. That I'm able to be more matured emotionally and stop repeating the same mistakes that I've done before. 3. I wish to meet the right guy soon. 4. I'm able to be totally independent. 5. Wish that all my friends are able to find happiness and stay happy always!! 6.If you can turn something in the past back , what would it be ? - I try and open my eyes bigger so that I'll not fall for those jerks in the past. 7.What are your main priorities now ? - Studies, happiness and health. 8.What makes you happy? - If you're close enough to me I think you should know :) 9.What do you wanna change in you ? - erm..be more patient. really.. & not so much of a moodswing. 10. What song can represent your feelings now..? - 期 待 你 的 爱 11.What type of person you hate most? - Liars. 12. Are there anything you wish to confess now? - I think I like him. 13. What is your defination of a dream house ? - hmm.. Somewhere where I can relax and is spacious for me to de-stress. A garden and a swimming pool hopefully. :) 14. Who will you go to when you are feeling low one day ? - My closer girlfriends. 15.What you hope to achieve? - At least 2.8 and above for year 1 gpa hopefully! 16. What age do you wish to marry ? - Ermm.. around 25- 26..? because I might not meet my mr right yet so maybe need to delay..? LOL 17.What do you regret most in your life ? - Not being able to enter psychology course in NP!! Agrhh!!!! I want that course so bad!!! 18.Who made you angry for the passed few days? - Noone..? Make me stress yes..lol 19.What are you afraid of ? - losing my love ones. 20**. If you have a chance to confess to the person you like without giving ur name what will you confess..? - I seriously think I like you. Honesty speaking I think it's partly your fault, I think you send the wrong signal. But due to your reaction lately I think it's better to stop myself from getting deeper. I guess maintaining friends for now would be the best choice. Instructions : Remove 1 question from above , and add in your personal question , Make it a total of 20 questions , then tag 8 people in your list ,list them out at the end of this post . Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged .Whoever has the tag will have blessings from all. 1) Eileen2) peiling 3) Weixian4) Calista 5) Zhao xiong 6) Alvin7) Swee hong8) Shilin
I'm glad that I'm slowly beginning to take it easy. Looks like I'm not losing control anymore. 1:48 PM
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Sigh. I'm feeling emotional again. I so " Why did you made me get used to your existence and then back away all of a sudden..? " 2:02 PM
I can't believe I'm doing this kuku thing right now. Thanks to EILEEN LIM!! agrhh.... Fine I'll do it anyway since I've nothing to do hah. A. List seven habits/ quirks/ facts about yourself. B. Tag seven people to do the same. C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it". A. 1) I love to sing to myself whenever I'm alone. ( not that I cant sing well I'm from choir alright. It's just that I'm ... shy..?) HAHA! 2) I love to eat chilli, especially chilli padi!! ( thanks to my grandmother) :) 3) I'll slam full force on my piano keys If I keep on not getting a certain phrase or bar right. 4) I'm quite good at concealing my true feelings. 5) I love watching cute cartoons & I LOVE cute stuffs!! 6) Comfort that comes from a loved one( friends, girlfriends.. ppl whom I LOVE) soothes me when I'm feeling stressed. 7) I laugh really loud when I find something really funny. ( which is not good for a girl ) B. 1) shihui 2)wei xian 3) Insyirah 4)Shu zhen 5) Eddie 6) Jooteng 7)Eileen Ong 12:53 AM
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Woke up at 5am in the morning to pray at a particular place.... far far away. ( okie it sounds abit weird because I don't know what's the name of the place la!! ) So when I was in the car I was half-asleep we set off around 5plus and reached there around 6.30..? It was super dark alright then dad began to say " wha so dark I forgot to bring torchlights, how are we suppose to find the unit no.easily..? " So we tried to fumble our way through in the darkness it was like somekind of night trail activity..?? LOL I was actually worried that the ants already started working by the time we reached there, but thank god they didn't bite me so I guess they're still sleeping..? -.- After which we went back home and I slept till afternoon so I doubt I'll sleep early tonight. Honesty speaking I didn't really manage to sleep well yesterday night due to some personal matters which bothered me quite abit I must admit. Was feeling quite emo initially after I woke up just now but then decided not too dwell on it further if not I'll definitely get more moody. SIGH. Anyway I was backtracking on what I'd been doing for the past few weeks and I realized that the reason why I was feeling emotional these couple of days had something to do with the way I reacted. Maybe I was too overwhelmed by whatever that was happening around me that I didn't notice that I was getting carried away by my own emotions. Maybe my girls are right I should give myself more time and see what happens. It seems like I've confused effusiveness with affection. 3:35 PM
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
I hate the fact that you're able to make me smile so easily without putting in much effort. 10:52 PM
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Went and do some shopping with sarah at krangi. I bought quite a lot of things about 50 over bucks..( heartpain*) LOL. All of them were shorts and jeans, I still have yet to buy my top... AHHH!!!! So after shopping I went home and practiced scales for tomorrow's piano lesson before heading to cck to pick sze hao up. I admit I almost couldn't recognized him when I saw him, because he looked so different compared to the last time at RP hahah maybe it's because of his new haircolour. It looked pretty good on him :) So when we reached he came in and immediately settle down to work, he started playing with my lappy while I read my storybook. LOL But I think the problem was quite tough as he had to call IT help desk from rp to seek help. I feel abit guilty as I can only sit one side and look at him because I can't help him much. I SUCK at I.T la.. Don't blame me.. =X It's a pity that the main freaking problem still can't be solved it must be brought to the I.T clinic at RP, I made him waste a trip down to my house for nothing.. Sigh... So Sorry ya sze hao. I just realized that my heart isn't listening to me anymore. 10:16 PM
Sunday, March 23, 2008
School's gonna start again and I seems to be getting quite stressed up. I'm not sure if I'm able to handle things well what about ppt...? It's been such a long time ever since I presented infront of a class la..Though I persented quite a few times in Mr Ng's class..lol but this time round theres lots of new things..I'm worried!! But I guess it should be okay because if I don't do well (touchwood) there's still somebody I can go to & scold..LOL Recently I've been contemplating on some personal matters. Sometimes after too much of my own thinking I realized that I've gone too deep and start to feel emo. NONONO... I cannot let my thoughts control me, thoughts are just thoughts I can stop them from destroying my mood. Looks like I really have to watch my thoughts from now on, I learn that from a self improvement book I recently borrowed hahahah!! If possible I think I'm getting my haircut tomorrow yoohoo!! I'm so excited :) I sure hope my hairstylist can give me a new hairstyle.. I was also thinking if I should do and highlight my hair...hmmm... .. should I...? I really hope that history won't repeat itself this time round, because I seems to be falling for you.... .. 10:40 PM
Thursday, March 20, 2008
I'm actually quite tired right now, but god knows why I'm still here blogging. I don't know why but I woke up at 7.15 today all of a sudden and looked at the clock immediately I thought I was late. LOL then I went back to sleep until 8.20 and prepared myself for weixian to come as he was coming over to my house for piano lessons. He's quite a fast learner I must say..? But we didn't have enough time to play the piano as we're a little behind schedule. Went to cini with peilin , shihui and sarah to watch Rule no #1. The movie was not bad overall there were a few scenes where I almost screamed as the ghost poped out of nowhere thank god I covered my eyes before I saw the whole face of the ghost.. LOL!! I also bought a brown coloured t-shirt from IP zone at bugis junction.. =) I'm so happy hahaha cos it's not easy for me to buy things especially clothings hahahah ( yeah I know I'm fussy). I'm feeling rather perplexed right now due to some personal matters. I feel quite frustrated with myself for unable to sort out my own feelings for the moment though I'm glad that I'm finally able to sort of start over again, but at the same time I'm not sure if I'm really sure deep inside. I think I'm feeling something, but I can't confirm it yet I still need time. 11:16 PM
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
I think I met a sick man inside the train this morning while going for my piano lesson. Nonono not that kind of normal sickness, it's those retarded kinds. Because of the peak hour the whole train was packed like sardines but thank god I managed to squeeze myself in and there was this middle aged man who stood beside me. He being quite a tall build man was sort of blocking the pole from my sight & I felt insecure as I didn't have anything to hold on to suddenly the train jerked and I almost fell down. So out of desperation I tried to hold on to the pole beside the man who was on my right and I swear that was the most awkward thing I've ever done in my life. Seriously. Everyone around me was looking at me as if I did something wrong. Honesty speaking if you asked me it looked like I'm placing my hand on his shoulder and he's so much taller than me so the whole thing looked so so freaking embarassing. And as if it was not enough that man kept on leaning back and rest on my stretched out hand. WTH!!! It was so obvious he was trying to be with me la because he kept doing that for a few times. Needless to say I was totally pissed of I mean come on the freaking pole is just right beside him (even the blind can tell like DUH) so why can't he hold on to that to keep his balance instead...? You are sick man uncle. I'm so DISGUSTED. 11:42 PM
Monday, March 17, 2008
Trained down to RP today with peilin and yensing as lappy had abit of a problem. I thought it will take a long time as there was quite a lot of people. So I went to library's IT help desk only to discover that there wasn't a single soul there. So I went to agora hall there and the person directed me to the staff who was at the counter. Initially I thought to myself " Oh man, the staff at the counter does he know how to solve my problem? " so I walked towards him half-heartedly. I tried explaining to him the problem and then he gave me the I think I know but I'm not sure look.So I turn on my lappy and demo to him. Amazingly after showing him he almost immediately knew what the problem was. The last person who configured my lappy didn't do a good job. Yaya it was same lady who kept ''tsktsk-ing'' me when she was helping me to configure my lappy. See what happens when you are unwilling to help others..? You make careless mistakes because of the fact that you don't do it whole heartedly. Hopefully my lappy don't go crazy again. Bottom line: IF you want to help someone make sure u're willing to do so. If not FORGET IT!! Is something happening lately or is it just me..?? 10:32 PM
Saturday, March 15, 2008
I'm feeling rather stressed lately sigh.... Maybe it's due to the expectation of miss ho, I'm suppose to be able to play my own style/ version of Chopin's Nocturne and it's killing me!! I'm also worried about my lappy and Rp related stuff. I'm feeling emo. :( 10:23 PM
Friday, March 14, 2008
Wee~ ~ ~ Finally I got my lappy from HP ( thanks to super friendly service provider Sze Hao :) )!! But I must say I really had an unfriendly encounter with one of the staff when I got my laptop configured..? At first I thought she was a little bit irritated due to personal things, but then I realized that wasn't the case. I continued to remain at that particular station with her and another guy who was also like me a sotong. ( well maybe he was a clever sotong than me) then she started making " tsktsk" noises whenever I did something wrong or stoned because , I don't know what the hell she was talking about..? It was obvious that she was unwilling to help, it really must be a chore to her I guess otherwise she wouldn't be making the irritating noise throughout the whole pocess. I mean if she was really so reluctant to help people like me so blur for the first time, then don't bother to help out in the first place then, why make life so diffcuilt for you and other people? Seriously IF i know how to configure my laptop I wouldn't need your help lady. I would have taken over your place and be 100 times better than you in terms of personality and service so please stop showing me your attitute, WAKE UP will ya. Then I went home after piano lessons and decided to start lappy to see if it works. To my disappointment I can't seems to connect it to my house's MIO thing. So basically I was thinking what the hell to do next, I kept reconnecting my home wireless thing again and again. Then I tried connecting to RP's network again it was failure, but still tried to connect anyway though I know its not working. Long before dinner I was already handling my lappy and after dinner I was still fixing my lappy. I spent more than 3 hours trying to figure out how to connect my lappy to my MIO, I even talked to it ( saying come on connect la..) even though my mom laughed at me. LOL It's really frustrating for me, finally after asking all my friends the help they gave was not much of a help to me and their ideas don't work. I GAVE UP! I went online for a while and finally decided to sms Sze hao for HELP!! My father liked him alot as his service was excellent!! lolx (his service was provided from RP all the way to home, it's also 24/7, good right?? wahahah ) and thank god finally he came online..Phew. But I know it's super tiring for him.. I pity him ( shake head *) So I told him the problem and he was.. quite sure that the problem doesn't lies with MIO and kept on trying to help me figure out what the heck happened. hahah but he was very patient, even though I kept asking tonnes of idiotic questions about my lapy. We chatted for quite long as brainstorming need quite sometime & just as I was about to really give up hope. He suddenly told me " Why don't you connect RP network and your housewireless network together..? " I was abit hesitant at first as I was unsure but decided to trust him after he asked me to try it out anyway no harm I suppose haha. And then a miracle happened.. my lappy came to LIFE!! It was able to connect to the internet woohoo!! I was so high la and immediately told him who was still abit blur as it happened too fast LOL. He only spent few minutes thinking about it while I spent more than 3 hours figuring it and nothing happened.. How great isnt it..lol Anyway this post is specially dedicated to SZE HAO as promised for helping me so so so much yesterday and today at Rp and at home (msn), & sorry for making you stay up late to solve my problem ya . Thanks a lot for your wonderful help , really appreciated it!! =) 11:55 PM
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
If I were to say today isn't the worst day of my life then I MUST BE LYING. It all started when dad out of he blue said that he wanted to make a trip down to RP tomorrow to settle the enrollment thing. Thing is, I still have yet to prepare my relevant documents such as photocopied result slip..etc etc even the most crucial step which was the payment was left undone. I admit it was in the wrong, partly. BUT I was not given any notice on when we were going down isn't it? WTF. As usual long lectured was present when he flared up harsh words also flew out of the mouth like nobody's business. It was as if a madman was on a rage. From past experiences the only thing I could do is to try and shut up & hope that it will end fast. Because talking back to him when he's pissed will only make matters worse. No matter how I try to defend myself whether it is right or wrong makes no difference at all for all I know ever since from young. Honesty speaking I find the way he deals with problems when he's upset is just so not right. Maybe one day I should ask him to go and take up some anger management classes..? It would be good for his health, mentally and physically. I'm not kidding. It's only humane to make mistakes, after all its humans we're talking about not ROBOTS for fucking sake. Is there really a need to go this far..? You know what you've said just now.. those sentences that came from you, they're a big big mistake, it really hurt me. Whenever things like this happens I try to cover up and forget about it as soon as I'm able to get over it. But the thing is I'm somehow able to remember every single incident, including words which really really should not be said without serious consideration I have them all stored inside me. Every single one of them. Don't ask why because I myself don't have the answer. Much as I like to approach him regarding about this or anything that matters I have this strong feeling that it would be easier talking to him through mum instead. Not that I want to blame it on anyone, but it seems like he flare up too easily and I've been through all these nonsense from a very young age. So how can anyone expect me to go approach him after I've gone through bad experiences all my life? Is this even justifiable? Sometimes I just wished that he could be a little bit more tolerant and understanding. I can only wish I guess. 6:04 PM
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Sigh...................... allright I'm sick. Finally after 1 whole day of pure torture I can breathe normally, well at least it does not hurt as much compared to this morning. Due to some kind of infection I had to take 2 types of antibiotics which is insane I suppose..? Though Dr.Tan usually have the habit of prescribing medicine at a heavier dosage this time round it was seriously too much for me to handle. I woke up and immediately felt difficulty in breathing whenever I took a deep breath my chest felt like it was being pressurized and compressed. In other words it hurts whenever I breathe. I felt like dying~ ~ ~ :( I was literally lying on my bed as I was suffering, half asleep & almost looked like a dead person. Didn't have much energy to bother what was happening around me even though I could clearly hear my sis blasting music from the living room. Usually I would scream at her or slam my door but at that point of time I just wanted to continue lying on my bed. (see what happens when the medication is too strong??) So mom after seeing decided to stop the medication and wait till tomorrow to consult the doctor. Again. 11:07 PM
Saturday, March 8, 2008
I've got 4 bloody blisters on my feet. WTH. 2 on each foot, how great isn't it!! Anyway went to nick's birthday and halfway through the journey my 3 inch high heeled shoes started giving me problems and before I knew it I had blisters on my feet. Agrhh... I was on the verge of dying from pain when I decided to go and buy a pair of sandals from BHG. And guess what, after walking at a fast speed with xia lian as we had to rush to BP to meet the rest another blister started to appear on my 4th toe. Wha lau I'm so freaking suay today man. Overall the buffet was well done, food was quite delicious I must say hahah. Poor nick have to tolerate our nonsense as we poured eggs, flour and starch plus water of course on him.. Woohoo! Majority of the ''substance'' was on his hair, if it was whole body I think it the smell would be... 2 thumbs up? I noticed after the 'good show' nick's mom went and take a pail of water to wash off those sticky stuff dripping from his head..Awww... that's so sweet of his mom!! Furthermore his family members also used pails of water to wash away the mess on the floor. Tsktsk. Nichloas ( X2) I'm starting to envy you la..wahahah. Oh ya pictures were taking of course..But I have yet to receive em. will post them when I've them. =) I'm feeling so random now, I think I'm having some serious problems with myself, yet I'm unable to pinpoint what the heck is it about. God knows why but I'm freaking pissed now. I sure hope it's just mood swing. 11:43 PM
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Finally I went out with cousin today, we had been post poning our date for a bloody long time. Thank god it arrived!! Met her at cck mrt station and trained to westmall to have subway.. Yummy!! =) Chatted alot as we haven't got time to catch up lately, after which we went and shopped for her jeans hahah. I too found a really really nice long skirt which was grey in colour, but I didn't get it as I was having doubts if I really wanted it. Sigh. We went to watson as shu zhen wanted to get a moisturizer for her face. So being a science student she was quite fussy I must say. Oops!! =X She prefered those watery type of moisturizer which was diffcuilt to find in watson la, so in the end I helped her chose Witch's over another type which I never tried before at all..? LOL I know I know, so smart right...? hahahah Anyway in the middle of our date, we meet a stalker. At first I didn't even realized that we were being followed until I felt someone following closely behind us, thanks to my 6th sense man. This was what happened : We were walking chitchatting when I felt someone entering my personal zone so you can imagine how close he was sticking to us. Initially I thought that guy just happened to walk behind us, then I purposely slowed down our pacing to test him and he didn't bother to walk beside me, there was lots of space beside me obviously. So he continued his sickening behaviour and followed us up the escalator. I tried to keep myself calm in order not to let him know that I already noticed him. When we were about to head to precious thots, cousin suddenly said that she wanted to go to sports shop for a while so we turn left, and that guy... ohhh nono I should be calling him UNCLE instead given his age kept following. We walked inside the shop while he paced up and down outside the store, finally I couldn't take it anymore I asked my cousin, and she like what I suspected said that she didn't notice that he was stalking us all along. I admit I was a little bit freaked out by his actions maybe it was also due to his face..? I caught a quick glimpse of him the moment he stepped inside the shop and squeezed past us. It was only when he came inside then cousin really suspected that he was a stalker..? We immediately walked out of the shop when he came inside, he was so persistent man. What the heck. We scurried off to popular and was about to go inside and hide when I suddenly wanted to see if he dared to continue stalking us. So we stood outside popular and I was looking at the sport's shop entrance to wait for him to come out. And he did, he came out acting normal and was heading our direction when he saw me staring at him. He immediately looked away and pretended to go a different direction. I swear we were not wearing anything revealing, just top and shorts while cousin wore tshirt and pants. SO what the hell was he stalking us for..? If that PERV really thought we were so innocent and so freaking blind not to notice him that he was stalking us so closely, then I'm sorry. I'm sorry for noticing you but don't blame me for foiling your plan( god knows what the fuck you were trying to do) because you were so freaking obvious allright. Get a life sucker. I'm so so freaking disgusted by that perverted uncle's actions, even until now I still shudder at the thought of the incident just now. Don't ever let me see your face again I will screw you upside down.. UNCLE. 9:23 PM
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
It's late already and yet I'm still not sleeping. I just cant get to sleep, I have too much things going through my mind. After such a long time I realized that I still can't do it. I'm seriously pissed with myself for not being able to get myself out of this situation. Much as I want to get over this as soon as I can, I just can't stop myself from viewing his blog and reading everything that has to do with him. Deep inside I still want to know how's life going on for him, I still... care for him. I tried controlling myself and avoided doing things that will remind me of the past. I really tried. I can't help but to feel PATHETIC and sorry for myself whenever I'm missing him. I know very well that I should be letting this go because nothing's gonna come out of this at the end of the day. I guess it was my fault to begin with, maybe there really isn't anything special happening, it was all my wishful part of thinking. This has to go, this has to end. We were never lovers, just more than friends. 12:03 AM
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Today was a quite a exciting day, went to orchard with pl sarah and shihui, finally after such a long time we gathered for the 1st time together. Yea I know pathetic right? I think so too. lol Anyway we went to orchard 1st to see if I could get my 8hour cream at Tangs, but I couldn't find the god damn brand agrhh!!!. We had our lunch at SU korean restaurant, because I was craving for it ever since yesterday and I think all of them are so sick and tired of me repeating my hunger for the food from far east restaurant so we went there today hahahah!! and it was simply delicious. Yum yum!! After filling our stomachs we trained down to bugis to see if there was anything that we could buy. There wasn't much new stuffs but there was this particular t-shirt which caught my eye it says something like.. '' Starf**k for free '' and there's a picture of the starbuck's logo on the shirt. Its amazing how people can come up with these kind of ideas la.. allright that's all for now. nitex. The reason why I hate falling in love : It makes you feel totally helpless 11:12 PM
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