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My name's PX and you should know me.
I love to sing, dance and play the piano. Sometimes I think I've split personality but you'll soon get used to it.
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Saturday, July 31, 2010


Girls i would say are the most complicated creatures on earth. and when they fall in love it will be much much worst. sometimes it gets so twisted till we ourselves don't understand why we're behaving this way. girls reading this i know you feel me and possibly can't agree more. sad to say men(martians) who are from MARS do not really understand the language and behaviour of us(venusians) -VENUS.

So once upon a time, there was a little girl who fell in love with a martian. not all martian are the same, some understood venusians a little bit more due to experience, some lacked of experience while some are in the middle trying to work hard by understanding and learning from experience. 1 thing that puzzles me most is the behaviour of venusians- girls basically when. they. fall. in. love.

the amount of security through attention they need after they got attached to martians. of course before getting attatched time, attention, love and loads of TLC was lavished on the venusian. even if the martians had to pluck a million stars from the night sky they will do and willingly do so without further ado. but the story starts to have a different plot once they get together, generally the attention is there but sometimes the attitude towards each other is different. small sweet little things that were once given to the venusian are slowly fading and becoming shorter and more dilluted in sweetness - (note that this makes girls feel unloved and uncared for) no longer is the excited sparkle in the eyes when they meet, daily activities start to become routine and there is lesser enthusiasm when meeting the loved one.

in a long term relationship all the above is inevitable and i agree especially with routine. but what venusians are looking for is the effort that is put in to sustain and keep the flame going because of the love for her that initially made her agree to commit in this special relationship. it takes 2 hands to clap and when the thrill recedes in a relationship, both parties have a part to play in keeping the flame alive. love itself is not enough to sustain a relationship - especially a long term one.

here's something that i've read online just now which i think it's a great article to share around... ..


"
We tend to assume that a relationship must work of its own accord,' says Joerg Wesner, a psychologist who counsels couples in Hamburg. 'Actually this hands-off approach is what make a relationship deteriorate.'

This is a feeling which creeps up on couples who feel they know everything there is to know about the other person - and that's when the interest, the little presents start to vanish along with the little surprises, the compliments and the gestures of tenderness. Regardless of age this phase is usually accompanied by a marked drop in intimacy, with love-making typically declining by half, said Nuber "

and the answer is??? have frequent dates with your partner, do similar activities together to remind each other what originally attracted them to each other and behave the way you used to in a courtship( WHERE is all my sweet little gifts/surprises?? :P ) actually the venusians don't really expect much, because it's those little things that counts and we're ultimately talking about effort. simple right? so martians out there please pull up your socks.

the actual test of maintaining a relationship is not when it just started, when you go headoverheels and deeply intoxicated with your new prince charming. it starts when the honeymood period is over and when you start to see the real person you're in the relationship with. of course you've to accept the person for who he is but then more often than not martians start to "slacken" down to decrease the workload that they have to continue in order to sustain and create new flames for the relationship. it is not easy but it can be done and whether or not both are willing to work towards a common goal.

i think i pretty much summed up the thoughts inside my head. girls just want to be loved, cherished, respected and doted on only. that's quite simple right? for martians who loves their very own venusian.

ps: i hope mine will over-love me too. soon.



12:37 PM

Wednesday, July 28, 2010


Cheesecake + eggtarts today = mini session with syg. it didnt start off really well cause i evolved into sour plum face just now. but was glad that it's fine now and i said what i needed to say. i know i always turn into sour plum easily, though i'll try not to evolve too often but it's a girl's thing. girl's turn into sour plum for a reason. okay sayang? :P

Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect, it means you've decided to look beyond the imperfections. - Samantha's blog.

and i agree with that. nobody in this world is flawless maybe robots.

and a note to yurong. " Don't worry about the people in your past. There is a reason why they didn't make it to your future. " so cheerup okay i know it's abit random but i hope it makes u feel better a little bit. :))

ps: maybe you don't exactly know how much. but deep deep inside i want to be your no. 1.


9:13 PM

Sunday, July 25, 2010

23/6/10
that was the 1st time in my life i ever saw him getting so emotional and it really hurt a whole lot for me. heart wrenching as it is, i can't help but to get even more emotional and started bawling because i felt responsible for hurting him to the extend whereby i actually made him teared. i'm very deeply sorry my dearest for making you feel as if i'm not contented and still upset when over there you're already trying your best. just hope that you'll always remember that the reason why i always seems to be upset is because i care too much and i've to admit that the insecurity lingers when i feel things are no longer the same anymore. i hope that you'll understand and as promised i'll give us some time and i'll try to be more patience and be a better girlfriend.
i love you muhammad zulhilmi.



2:52 PM

Monday, July 19, 2010


I look at myself in the mirror and i feel sad. it's not the 1st time i'm feeling so demoralized after eating those fast food. cravings and temptations they are so not easy to fight off. lazyness, complacent and self-denial to seek comfort within my comfort zone all these are SO FUCKING EASYYY.

and
it
sucks.

so anyway. i've a pinky promise with dearest momo and the loser will need to fork out 500 bucks. * kching kching sound *
COOL RIGHT?!!! yes i know but rule of the game is to give up on sugar totally, except in it's natural form which is : FRUITS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you hear me loud and clear. i'll abstain far away from fastfood too. i need to lose weight badly hopefully i'll be able to squeeze out some wednesday morning for my jog which starts next week after the insane FYP presentation + LA hiphop(8 august) will make my body toned once more after 8 sessions HAHAHHA!!

so 5kg of weight here i come!!!
:)

10:05 PM

Saturday, July 17, 2010


Crucify My Enemies

Your images lingering within my brain, your voice your scent haunting me like there's no end.
looking at the other side to her dismay there's no familiar faces in sight.
like a disturbing side that everyone tries to hide,
it's a form of game i've to play everyday,
associates with tears, bitterness; a sense of disarray
facing up to the truth now, maybe this is the price she has to pay.

Angst never consumed me in such a way, that killing might not satisfy nor pleasure
lies are words that were spoken, promises that were given
these endless statements that were once given, they can't be forgiven
time is running out and i can't break this fixation
they way crimson red leaves fall during autumn
the soul in your eyes, why do i feel a sense of elation?

Awaiting to be freed from isolation and despair
death promised to accompany since you won't be there,
scattered memories revoked the love i once had for you
you claimed you're bleeding, don't deny
i know it's just not the same from the look in your eyes.

Grant me my last wish, i longed for your soul
this is the last time i'll forget you
this is her last chance to lose control,
i could believe there was more the suffocation intensifies
cause you could have been my number one.

this poem is specially dedicated to yurong & me.
don't think so much just pen them down like me.





4:39 PM

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Sometimes when i walk around and i see and feel things around me acting the was it should be. i stop and ask myself " why am i feeling this way? " and i begin to have another voice telling me that actually i've a decision to make, whether to feel the natural way that you should feel or choosing whether i should feel that particular way or not. complicated much? yes i feel you. and that's exactly how i feel these few days.


9:31 PM

Saturday, July 3, 2010


Sometimes listening to your love ones and do those small little things that means a whole lot to her/him means the whole world to them. :)
10:43 PM

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