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Saturday, August 14, 2010
i actually feel kinda suffocated for the past few days. just that i try not to let it be too obvious. you know the kind of feeling when you're robbed off the sense of security which is something that you really need? it is like preventing a mother being able to come in contact with a toddler when he's crying or sad. i know you still love me but the main point is that it is whenever we hug each other tight i feel that i'm loved and protected by you, it makes me feel secured in some sense. so tell me how am i suppose to be able to feel loved by you and that you're still concern about me when we're unable to get too close with each other. don't be mistaken im not blaming anyone anything or anybody, it's just my inner most feeling that i've to let go. this is what i mean by guys use their brain to think while girls use their heart to think. i miss you AND i want to talk to you but short and few messages that can be counted less than 5 fingers make it seems ungenuine and can't really be bothered. so tell me dearest, how am i suppose to want to carry on the conversation with you when it seems like i'm the only one getting enthusiastic chatting with you? things goes back to normal for a short while after there's voicing or reminding of certain issues, but they never seems to be able to maintain. more often than not they tend to return to square one. words/reminders that are preached often loses it's magic. you want to know what i'm really afraid of?? that once i stop pushing all this, things will not move forward, things will just stop and i might have to get used to the "reality" and sooner or later everything will just crumble and fall. Ps: whenever i say i miss you do you really know the real actual meaning of that statement? it's not the meaning of the word that matters, it's the underlying meaning beneath the word that matters most. 11:18 PM
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